Well here I am … and some would say “Its about time!!” (It is my vanity that tells me that some people still read what I have to write). Well, I agree that it’s been really long since I sat down and started clobbering the key board to churn my thoughts on the screen but then again, and just to reason, it’s been a mad roller coaster ride lately. People who know me closely would testify to that fact. I have now come to believe that there is enough meat in my head that I can send out to cyberspace.
Now that I am here after the biggest gambit I have ever taken with my life – marriage can top that still I think. I am now in a different country, with a different job, around different people, tasting different kinds of food, living in a new place to live far away from home away from my family. A country radically different than where I came from, I think it will take a while to settle. “Too big a change” some would say and it wont be unfair to do so. It is big by any standard. So big that I don’t think have the ability to feel it completely. I guess time would help ‘sink it’ in for me. One more statement that I get to hear is “But … you were doing so well?” This really cracks me up. I am not going to prison people!!! Professionally, this was a no-brainer. Not that I have arrived in life but it gives me so much perspective that it is worth its weight in gold. Personally, yes I agree, I am not sure if I am better off than before … yet. Though there are tons of things to see and experience, I had lots of people around me that cared for me which made my life very easy and comfortable. That’s something I don’t get here and I am not too sure in an alien country it will come easy but then technology is definitely helping. The physical distance still remains but connections are becoming smaller.
Nonetheless, I think it was required, for me atleast. I was stuck in a middle of daily grind so big that I no could longer tell what was wrong or right. I could not tell how I was doing, how I was thinking, I could not tell my real friends from the fake ones, I didn’t know what I wanted – an utter state of confusion believe me! To me this is that first step in the journey of figuring out my priorities and then a lot more. I also think it make help me find some ‘answers’ that I have been asking myself lately. Many of you might say that you don’t have to go far away to solve for those. I say that you do, sometimes atleast. Only when you are so far is when you are really able to look close enough. It might be too early to say but I think I am getting to know myself better; I am getting to know the people who matter to me, people who REALLY care. It is still not that clear, as yet maybe, but I know, deep down inside, that I will get there… soon. This is something, which, until recently, I didn’t know how to handle. I guess I am lucky that I got to experience this. My advice, to all that who care to take, is to get out of that comfortable chair and go through the experience life has to offer!
More soon…
3 comments:
yes.. there are people looking forward to read what you write....
I am very happy for you .. for the fact that you are happy ... and are experiencing what you wanted to after all.... and especially for the journey within that you are taking....... the perspective and the answers. "You are led through your lifetime by the inner learning creature, the playful spiritual being that is your real self. Don't turn away from possible futures before you're certain you don't have anything to learn from them. You're always free to change your mind
and choose a different future, or a different past."
Different things work for different people..cause we are all different.. for some it may be a matter to getting into the unknown to find oneself. I personally testify that it works :) ... for others or at a different life stage .. time.... it may be closing your eyes and getting into ONEself to find oneself ....
As for luck ... my perspective is that nothing happends by chance.....and there is no thing as luck. There is a meaning behind every little thing.....part for you.. part for people around you.. you or they may not see it all clear right now, but we will, before long.
take care, rp
While driving to work today, B.Spears was singing.. "Gimme, gimme, gimme more"
Reading your blog is like having a Guinness stout after a hot day out in the Sun. Fresh, fresh, fresh! Aha too much ho gaya. Keep clobbering.
Sayonara,
V.A
You really know how to provoke the thoughts....
your words still echo in my ears, " I need this change for me,"
And there you are with the change. Away from home, friends and people who sare ( not cared ). They ae all yours and near you. distance is immense but one thought of times shared and emotions emoted fill the lonely feeling and one gets back to togethersome.
So many things shape what we become, Minute to large influences add up to one sum,Many individuals have touched our paths,From the preachers who preached
And those must have shown us a lesson or two and often taught us the false and the true, Even who helped with a smile or tear,
Or those we'd only spoke on the phone, Without any we'd be somehow different today
If still present we're thankful for the roles that they play
But it's hard to believe you've touched someone the same
They may not have known you or even your name
But believe that we're significant in this brief life
We help one another through lessons and strife
There's hope and there's friendship with others who care
We're never alone in these lives that we share
So let fellowship grow and you keep introspecting ureself as wellas know the world around u.
And be blessed with gladness again and again.
Am sure this change is gonna be the most POSITVE thing in your life and will bring unfold many JOYS .
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